August192014

When Transporters Abuse and Traumatize Dogs

When Transporters Abuse and Traumatize Dogs

A year ago, I transported for what I will only describe as a CRAP rescue. During that time, I have seen disgusting transporting and I brought it to the attention of the CRAP rescue. She denied there was a problem and that the transporter has delivered her dogs without incident. To go into the details would only horrify people, so I will hopefully be able to attach photos to truly show the…

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August182014

Letting Go

I believe in having your own Personal Power. My own personal power is something that I strive for and work with daily. I’m very pleased at where I have come in the last couple of years. Nothing is 100%, but to the progress of letting go, I pat myself on my own back.

**Letting Go**

To “let go” does not mean to stop caring, it means
I can’t do it for someone else.

To “let go” is not to cut myself…

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August62014

A Beautiful Mind

Food Cop July 2014

July 24, 2014, a day I will never forget, a piece of my past surfaced that I didn’t even know existed. Shocked and confused I pushed through the emotions. Anxiety set in, I was going to write out my food cop’s inner dialogue, I have never ever shared that with anyone before. Words started to flow as I wrote them out on my picture as to what my Food Cop says to me. Suddenly something came out of…

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July312014

Fallen off and disitracted

Fallen off and disitracted

I know I am not the first person to fall off of a weight loss program and have life distractions but I can’t help but feel miserable about the increase in weight. I am however, looking at this opportunity to get back on track and I started by writing down my food intake this morning and now this blog.

I don’t do well with extreme stress and there has been some. I forget to take care of me, I…

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June262014

Anxiety and Having an Eating Disorder

Anxiety and Having an Eating Disorder

I know its been awhile since I have written. I have felt like I don’t have anything to contribute, but after the last little while of experiencing what I have determined to be anxiety in an extreme fashion, and my spouse said it would be a good idea to write out what is bothering me.

On my journey of healing with my eating disorder, the next step is what is called meal support. Meal support is…

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June12014

False Fronts

On the outside, I appear like everyone else. I eat with others at meals, to hide the negative voice of ED as he will punish me later. I have been trying to challenge my social anxiety and while I do this, I notice that I have started to include alcohol to cope with the fears and anxiety of being in public. So now I have binge eating and purging with laxatives, as well as alcohol to help cope when…

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May112014

What to Process

I know for weeks now I’ve not written a blog. I know I’ve thought about it and pushed it aside, feeling like I have nothing to write, even if it is for my own personal growth. 

I’m in an Anxiety Group that just started last week. Its early, but so far its been helpful to talk to other people who have or having experienced what fears are with leaving your house, wanting to go to social events and…

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April192014
Fighting the Darkness

I am in a dark place. I know I’ve been under a tremendous amount of stress, my focus and direction lost.

Fighting the Darkness

I am in a dark place. I know I’ve been under a tremendous amount of stress, my focus and direction lost.

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