July312014

Fallen off and disitracted

Fallen off and disitracted

I know I am not the first person to fall off of a weight loss program and have life distractions but I can’t help but feel miserable about the increase in weight. I am however, looking at this opportunity to get back on track and I started by writing down my food intake this morning and now this blog.

I don’t do well with extreme stress and there has been some. I forget to take care of me, I…

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June262014

Anxiety and Having an Eating Disorder

Anxiety and Having an Eating Disorder

I know its been awhile since I have written. I have felt like I don’t have anything to contribute, but after the last little while of experiencing what I have determined to be anxiety in an extreme fashion, and my spouse said it would be a good idea to write out what is bothering me.

On my journey of healing with my eating disorder, the next step is what is called meal support. Meal support is…

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June12014

False Fronts

On the outside, I appear like everyone else. I eat with others at meals, to hide the negative voice of ED as he will punish me later. I have been trying to challenge my social anxiety and while I do this, I notice that I have started to include alcohol to cope with the fears and anxiety of being in public. So now I have binge eating and purging with laxatives, as well as alcohol to help cope when…

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May112014

What to Process

I know for weeks now I’ve not written a blog. I know I’ve thought about it and pushed it aside, feeling like I have nothing to write, even if it is for my own personal growth. 

I’m in an Anxiety Group that just started last week. Its early, but so far its been helpful to talk to other people who have or having experienced what fears are with leaving your house, wanting to go to social events and…

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April192014
Fighting the Darkness

I am in a dark place. I know I’ve been under a tremendous amount of stress, my focus and direction lost.

Fighting the Darkness

I am in a dark place. I know I’ve been under a tremendous amount of stress, my focus and direction lost.

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Quick Update

ImageFirst I must thank my friend katiecoolady for the photo above. For those who haven’t checked out her blog, you really should. Here is her link http://twoinnocents.wordpress.com/2014/03/23/quick-update/.

I apologize for not updating since my last post which was about my feeling out of body (or as some call disassociating) from the 3 car fatality last weekend, March 15, 2014.

I’ve been trying to…

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